I’m Back!

In my last post (way back in July), I talked about my weight struggles since having a baby in May. After that post, things did not get better. I went back to work at the beginning of August, continuing to binge and steadily gain weight until the beginning of 2017. I had a hard time adjusting to going back to work. I’d get a handle on things for a few days to a few weeks at a time, but ultimately, I’d succumb to my demons.

I made some decisions and discoveries near the end of 2016. The main decision was that I needed to get medical treatment for my binge eating disorder. The big discovery was that I was diagnosed with ADHD, which is where much of my impulsive behavior (i.e. binge eating) and anxiety stem from. I’ll delve more into the specifics of this in another post.

So, I’ve been taking a 2-pronged approach to the issue at hand. I see a therapist every other week to address the behavioral issues: ADHD, binge eating, debilitating anxiety, other demons. And I go to the Center for Weight Management and Nutrition at my local hospital once a month to deal with the weight problems; we have not yet ruled out the possibility of weight loss surgery, but at the very least it’s a good, old-fashioned hand-holding.

I’m hoping that the therapy will be effective since I plan to continue breastfeeding for quite some time and am not able to take any medications to treat the ADHD or anxiety. I like my therapist, but I’m not yet sure if she’s totally equipped to deal with an eating disorder. I’m giving her a chance though! I just had an entire week off the rails after being on the right track for over a month, but the last 2 days have been better. I haven’t been weighing myself at home, only at my doctor’s visits, so I am nervous to see how this all pans out at my appointment next Wednesday afternoon.

  • 1/10/2017: 288.1
  • 1/31/2017: 276.4

There! The numbers are back out there in the blogosphere, so now I have to curb my impulses, right? Right??!

Goals:

  • 80-100 g protein per day
  • Less than 24 g added sugar per day
  • Meet daily step goals
  • Recumbent bike 3-4 times per week

Now I need to go catch up on all the blogs I have been neglecting! What’s new with you? Has anyone successfully managed ADHD and/or anxiety without meds?

My Story

I’ve been overweight since I was a baby and the doctor told my mother to switch me to skim milk.

Does anyone else remember the yearly shamefest of being weighed and measured at school? Then, they’d write down your height and weight on a slip of paper and send it home with you. I remember that dreaded day in third grade: the kids in my class were comparing their heights and weights when the boy next to me leaned over, saw my paper and announced, “Alison weighs over a hundred!” I was mortified. At the age of 8, I already weighed 117 pounds. But my parents’ well-meaning friends kept telling me, “When you hit your growth spurt, you’ll thin right out! That’s just baby fat!”

So, I kept waiting for this growth spurt that never came. In fifth grade, I was 5′ tall. Newsflash: by the ripe old age of 29, I’ve growth-spurted myself right to 5’1″. Continue reading