While last month was slow and steady, this month, the weight is just falling off.
- Starting Weight: 353.4 lbs
- Last Week: 258.6 lbs
- Current Week: 255.6 lbs
- This week’s change: -3.0 lbs
- Change overall: -97.8 lbs
I have lost more in the past 2 weeks than I did in the entire month of February! I haven’t been doing anything differently, except I had cake… twice (it was D’s birthday!). Oh? You mean that you can have your cake, eat it, and still lose weight? Who knew? Obviously, I didn’t indulge in mass amounts of cake, but yes. It’s possible to indulge and lose weight.
I’ve been thinking a lot about that balance lately. When I’ve been “off the wagon,” everything was extreme. I wouldn’t have a sliver of cake, I would eat half a cake with ice cream and chips… and probably a burger or two… and chicken tenders with ranch. So many chicken tenders. Life doesn’t need to be like that!
I would be lying if I said I didn’t still sometimes get the urge to binge. I don’t think that every urge is even triggered by something particular. Sometimes, they’re just there. Sometimes, you just have “hungry days.” I know that if I give in to these urges, it will start an entire downward spiral, wherein I would binge every day. So now, when this happens I make allowances. I try to fill that emptiness by making smarter choices. I eat small amounts at a time and track them as I go. I might as well buy stock in baby carrots because they are my go-to when the binging urge strikes. I can sit on the couch with a bag of baby carrots and mindlessly eat them like potato chips, at a fraction of the calories.
This balance is part of my life now more than ever before. Sometimes, I think that I don’t care and I want to let go, but I know that’s not true. I matter. I can’t continue to kill myself by binging wildly. I don’t want to let go, and I don’t want to throw away all the progress I’ve made. I still have a long way to go, and I know that I will struggle with this for the rest of my life. I’m striving to eat like a “normal” person. I make good choices and prepare my own food 95% of the time, so when I do indulge, it seems special, and it’s something to be savored.
How do maintain balance in your daily life? Any tips or tricks?