Week 34 Weigh-In: 100 Pounds GONE

I have done it. I’ve lost exactly 100 pounds!

  • Starting Weight: 353.4 lbs
  • Last Week: 253.6 lbs
  • Current Week: 253.4 lbs
  • This week’s change: -0.2 lbs
  • Change overall: -100.0 lbs

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I can’t begin to adequately express how I feel about such a monumental accomplishment, but you all know I’m going to try!

When I started this journey on August 1, 2014, I really only started because my company was offering a discount on Weight Watchers. I had tried so many times and failed, even having previously lost about 95 pounds with Weight Watchers in 2009-2010, as I explained in my story. I didn’t have an a-ha! moment, and I’m not sure what made this time different. I didn’t have high hopes or big expectations, but I promised myself two things: I wouldn’t consume any alcohol for the first 30 days, and if I was hungry, I would eat.

Surfing the internet for inspirational stories of people who’d lost over 150 pounds and followed Simply Filling, I found Brooke: Not on a Diet. Brooke has been a great source of motivation and inspiration for me in this endeavor, and I highly recommend that you check her out! In her post about reaching her weight loss goal, she said, “I’m an after,” and I thought, “Yes! I can be an after!” It was then that this little blog was born, aptly named Journey to After. I started my blog in the hopes of just holding myself accountable for my actions. As a recovering food addict, I believe this was a necessary step. The support and friendship I have found here on WordPress has been indispensable. As with any addiction, support is absolutely key to the recovery process.

I still have about 120 pounds to go to reach my weight loss goal. Though, I’m still not totally sure what my goal really is, and I don’t think I will know until I get much closer to that point. I THINK that number might be in the 130s, but it is subject to change. I am 5’1″, and I have always been overweight, so I really just don’t know what to expect. HOWEVER, the change in my mindset from “I can’t believe I still have this much weight left to lose” to “I only have this much weight left to lose,” is refreshing. I didn’t set out to lose 100 pounds in 34 weeks. I didn’t even initially hope to lose 100 pounds in one year. I just wanted to feel better. Then I lost 19 pounds in my first week, and something just clicked. I was doing it! And I wasn’t going back.

I look back to last July, and that girl feels like a different person. I don’t ever want to forget that person, but I don’t ever want to be her again. The Alison of July 2014 was uncomfortable, losing confidence in herself, experiencing social anxiety, sitting on the couch all day, in pain, and unhappy. Since embarking on this journey, so much has changed. Yes, I still battle with feeling uncomfortable, and that old social anxiety creeps up sometimes. Now though, I’m outside and moving. I go for walks, I work in my yard. I’ve always loved cooking, and I do that more. My husband and I actually do things together instead of sitting kind of near each other while watching TV. I’m enjoying life, and I’m so excited to go kayaking and hiking and biking this summer. I’m learning not to let my size define me anymore.

This rediscovered self-worth has had an amazing impact on my marriage as well. This journey isn’t just about losing weight – I am reclaiming my life and my relationships. I am learning to love myself and learning that I am worth more than my weight in cheeseburgers and potato chips.

The “secrets” to my success?

  • I track everything that I eat. This includes EVERYTHING.
  • I prepare most of my own food, making a lot of crock pot meals and casseroles over the weekend to prepare for the week ahead. Most of this food is fresh. I try not to use overly processed foods like fat-free cheeses and salad dressings. I refuse to eat margarine or light butter and light breads, and I rarely buy TV dinners or those crappy 100 calorie packs of junk food or candy. I use full-fat butter and cheese in moderation. The next time you are at the grocery store, compare the ingredient list of reduced fat cream cheese to the ingredient list of the full fat version. I dare you. I am, however, down with the Sandwich Thin.
  • I eat every 2-3 hours so that I don’t get so hungry that I go home and eat my entire couch. My mid-afternoon snack is my secret weapon!
  • I eat at least one serving of fruits (though not more than 3 servings of fruit!) or vegetables with every meal and snack. They fill you up, and they prevent you from getting scurvy!
  • I balance my plate with proteins, carbs, and fruits/vegetables, following the plate balancing trick of dividing your plate down the middle, filling half the plate with veggies, then dividing the other half again. In one quarter, you have protein, and the last quarter is a starch in order to try to limit my carbohydrate/starch intake to one serving per meal or snack. Say I go out to a restaurant or over to someone’s house for dinner and there’s mashed potatoes and dinner rolls: I will normally just choose one or the other.

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  • I use my weekly PointsPlus allowance if I want to. If I want pizza, I will eat pizza. If I want cake, I will eat cake. If I want a beer, I will have a beer. But I eat them in moderation, and I track as I go. I even ate a crispy buffalo chicken wrap at work the other week, and you know what? I didn’t eat it because I felt like I deserved it or because I was emotional or because I was self-sabotaging. I ate it because I planned for it and because it fit into my day. This is the rest of your life. There needs to be a balance, and you don’t need to have an all-or-nothing mentality.
  • I’ve accepted that I need boundaries and guidelines when it comes to my eating habits.
  • I’ve accepted that “normal” skinny people do not eat whatever they want all the time, and I’m not doing myself any favors by treating my body like a landfill. Most of the thin and fit people I know are very conscious of what they are putting into their bodies. Sure, there are exceptions, but actually watch your friends and coworkers; I think you will be surprised!

In other news, (now that I’m off my soapbox) if you haven’t already signed up for a blogger penpal, the deadline is fast approaching! So far, I have heard from Amber, Rachael, and Katrina (and me!), and would love for a few more to get in on the action.

I wanted to include a photo of myself with this post, but today is my work from home half day, and I’m slumming, so here is a photo of me from Saturday afternoon. This is the face of a lady who is just about to reach her 100-pound weigh loss goal!

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And this girl from Friday who’d just enjoyed a very classy vodka gimlet while wearing an extremely loud shirt.

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Sincerely, thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout this leg of my journey. I don’t know where I would be without you! Hey, I lost 100 pounds in less than a year!

Blogger Care Package Swap: Round One

Some of you expressed interest in participating in a care package buddy program. I’ve seen swaps of this sort happening around Instagram for a while, and it would be a great morale/team building exercise for us bloggers, too! I’m thinking that it would be fun to do it “Secret Santa” style, where people send me their information and are arbitrarily assigned a blogger to send some treats!

The Rules:

  • United States participants only (sorry!)
  • Fill out the form below with your information by Sunday, April 5, 2015.
  • Make sure to note any dietary restrictions, likes or dislikes in the comments section.
  • Keep it at a $10-$15 maximum price point.
  • Ideas: Include some of your favorite or essential weight loss foods/tools, snacks, stickers, hair ties, notebooks, anything! Especially fun? Try to include items only found in your local area or region!
  • Optional: post a picture of your package on your blog for all of us to see
  • Have fun!!!

Sign up!


I think this will be great fun!

Week 33 Weigh-In and an Idea!

For the first time in months, I’ve had 3 consecutive large losses!

  • Starting Weight: 353.4 lbs
  • Last Week: 255.6 lbs
  • Current Week: 253.6 lbs
  • This week’s change: -2.0 lbs
  • Change overall: -99.8 lbs

So close to 100 pounds lost! I don’t want to get cocky, but I think there’s a good chance I should be hitting that goal next week… if not, then the week after! I’m sure Gen will be posting something similar then too!

In regards to rewarding myself, since the 100-pound mark, getting under 250, and my 30% goal (247.7) are all within 5.7 pounds of each other, I am going to have a joint celebration for them. I haven’t decided what I want yet. Maybe a pedicure…

In addition to these scale victories, there are also some major non-scale victories going on lately. I wore one of my old “skinny” dresses to work the other day – it’s a size 14/16! Since I was wearing a 26/28 (maybe even should have been wearing a 30), this is a huge deal. All of the dresses I’ve been closeting from Gwynnie Bee have all of a sudden been size 18… and they fit! And all of a sudden, I’m wearing size 20 pants… and I even worse these riding boots that I bought back in the fall. When I bought them, I couldn’t zip them halfway up my calf.

As for personal victories, I just accepted a promotion at work. I start Monday, 4/6!


Now, the IdeaRachael and I have been doing these little care packages to each other, where we put in some of our favorite foods or whatever (within the $10-$15 range) and mail them off. It’s been pretty fun, especially since we live on opposite ends of the country! Anyway, we got to thinking – what if we opened this up to our fellow blogger friends? Let me know if you would be interested in participating, and I’ll try to orchestrate something!

What good things are happening for you? Let me have it!

Week 32 Weigh-In

While last month was slow and steady, this month, the weight is just falling off.

  • Starting Weight: 353.4 lbs
  • Last Week: 258.6 lbs
  • Current Week: 255.6 lbs
  • This week’s change: -3.0 lbs
  • Change overall: -97.8 lbs

I have lost more in the past 2 weeks than I did in the entire month of February! I haven’t been doing anything differently, except I had cake… twice (it was D’s birthday!). Oh? You mean that you can have your cake, eat it, and still lose weight? Who knew? Obviously, I didn’t indulge in mass amounts of cake, but yes. It’s possible to indulge and lose weight.

I’ve been thinking a lot about that balance lately. When I’ve been “off the wagon,” everything was extreme. I wouldn’t have a sliver of cake, I would eat half a cake with ice cream and chips… and probably a burger or two… and chicken tenders with ranch. So many chicken tenders. Life doesn’t need to be like that!

I would be lying if I said I didn’t still sometimes get the urge to binge. I don’t think that every urge is even triggered by something particular. Sometimes, they’re just there. Sometimes, you just have “hungry days.” I know that if I give in to these urges, it will start an entire downward spiral, wherein I would binge every day. So now, when this happens I make allowances. I try to fill that emptiness by making smarter choices. I eat small amounts at a time and track them as I go. I might as well buy stock in baby carrots because they are my go-to when the binging urge strikes. I can sit on the couch with a bag of baby carrots and mindlessly eat them like potato chips, at a fraction of the calories.

This balance is part of my life now more than ever before. Sometimes, I think that I don’t care and I want to let go, but I know that’s not true. I matter. I can’t continue to kill myself by binging wildly. I don’t want to let go, and I don’t want to throw away all the progress I’ve made. I still have a long way to go, and I know that I will struggle with this for the rest of my life. I’m striving to eat like a “normal” person. I make good choices and prepare my own food 95% of the time, so when I do indulge, it seems special, and it’s something to be savored.

How do maintain balance in your daily life? Any tips or tricks?

Weeks 30 and 31 Weigh-Ins

So, I’ve been a busy girl and forgot to post last week’s results!

  • Starting Weight: 353.4 lbs
  • Week 29: 264.4 lbs
  • Week 30: 263.2 lbs
  • Week 31: 258.6 lbs
  • Two-week change: -5.8 lbs
  • Change overall: -94.8 lbs

I am super excited. I’m in the 250’s!!! I walked 3 miles today! Up 3 giant hills!

In other news, my Fitbit Flex won’t charge anymore. I definitely will not be buying another one, and I’m glad that I used Sears points to pay for much of it. My issues with FitBit Flex, in a nutshell?

  1. My steps NEVER correctly synced up to the challenges. Not once.
  2. Customer service is terrible. I contacted them about the problem above, and two different reps treated me as though I didn’t know what I was doing instead of actually trying to help.
  3. The idea of a wrist tracker is nice, but if you’re pushing a cart or carrying something, it’s not counting your steps.
  4. The battery life quickly deteriorated after the first month or two (I bought it in September 2014).
  5. For the past few months, I had to mess around with the charger to try to get it to charge. Finally today, no matter what, it wouldn’t charge.
  6. $100 for something that will only last for 6 months and doesn’t work the way it’s supposed to.
  7. It’s really just a glorified pedometer. It doesn’t actually have any calorie burn information like a heart rate monitor would.

I will miss the silent alarm… but I think that’s it.

Disclaimer: above opinions based solely on personal experience.

Measuring Up: Month 7

While I’ve hit what might be my first real plateau/stall (I don’t want to spoil tomorrow’s weigh-in post, but… according to yesterday’s peek at the scale, I’m still dancing around the same pound that I’ve been seeing for the past 3 weeks), I still lost 5.4 pounds this month thanks to a huge loss in the first week! In addition to those 5 pounds, the tape is showing some great progress.

Total Inches Lost: 36.0″

Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.711

Waist:

  • Starting: 49″
  • Last month: 41.0″
  • Current: 40.5″
  • Overall Change: -8.5″

Right Bicep:

  • Starting: 21.0
  • Last month: 17.25″
  • Current: 17.0″
  • Overall Change: -4.0″

Bust:

  • Starting: 51″
  • Last month: 43.25″
  • Current: 42.25″
  • Overall Change: -8.75″

Right Thigh:

  • Starting: 35.5″
  • Last month: 30.0″
  • Current: 29.75
  • Overall Change: -5.75″

Hips:

  • Starting: 66″
  • Last month: 58.0″
  • Current: 57.0″
  • Overall Change: -9.0″

I knew something was up when I inexplicably all of a sudden am in a size 20 dress instead of the 22 I’ve been wearing. In fact, the size 20 may even be a little too big, but I’m nervous to try out an 18! According to my bust measurement, I should be a size 16, while my waist should be a 20, and my hips should still be somewhere between a 28 and a 30. When choosing the right size, I tend to try to go with my waist measurement, meaning the bust and arms are too big and the hips have a shot at being snug, especially because I’ve recently uncovered a deep and abiding love for shift dresses, even though I know I should really stick to the fit and flares!

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Why yes, that is a size 20 dress that I found in my closet!

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I was informed that this size 20 dress was too big for me.

Can you believe it’s been just 7 months? I feel like a new person!