Can you believe it? Six whole months! In some respects, it feels like I’ve been at this forever (I guess I technically have been), but the last 6 months have absolutely flown by.
Total Inches Lost: 33.0″
Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.707 (WOWZA, va-va-voom! Haha)
- Starting: 49″
- Last month: 41.25″
- Current: 41.0″
- Overall Change: -8.0″
- Starting: 21.0
- Last month: 18.5″
- Current: 17.25″
- Overall Change: -3.75″
- Starting: 51″
- Last month: 43.25″
- Current: 43.25″
- Overall Change: -7.75″
- Starting: 35.5″
- Last month: 32.0″
- Current: 30.0″
- Overall Change: -5.5″
- Starting: 66″
- Last month: 58.0″
- Current: 58.0″
- Overall Change: -8.0″
I think it’s very interesting that in the beginning, I pretty uniformly lost weight everywhere. Now, I’m seeing big changes in one area and no change in other areas! For example, I lost TWO WHOLE inches from my right thigh this month, but my bust stayed the same as last month! Last month, I lost 2 inches from my hips, and this month they stayed the same. And what’s up with losing 1.25″ from my right bicep? How does THAT happen in only a month’s time?
I don’t know how many of you follow me on Instagram, but the other day I posted a comparison shot that I want to share here.
In the first photo, I had already lost about 50 pounds (304.4). The second photo is about 35 pounds different from the first (271.4). I couldn’t believe the difference that 35 pounds made. My shoulders are less broad. I can see a difference in my ELBOWS. Obviously, the most noticeable difference is in my hips. They don’t seem to be up so high as they were before. Of course, I had just finished working out in the first photo, and in the second one I had just finished getting ready for work. It does sort of make me feel bad for bigger Alison… always represented in such an unfortunate manner. I avoided full-body photos before. BUT I did find this face shot from the day before I started on my journey.
It honestly upsets me to see the look on my face in this photo. 7/30/14. I had just gotten that shirt with the Peter Pan collar, and I was so excited for it. When I put it on, I didn’t look cute or vintage-y, and I didn’t like the way I looked. You can SEE how miserable I was. I remember how much pain I was in, how I could barely walk anymore because at 5’1″ with a small frame, my body was not designed to carry 353.4 pounds. I had seriously injured my left knee simply by walking down the stairs at work in April 2014, and the next few months were comprised of one over-compensating injury after another. Every morning when I woke up, I braced myself for the pain I was going to feel when I tried to stand up out of bed. D and I vacationed in the Finger Lakes in New York in June, and we didn’t do much of anything except drive around, eat, and hang out in a casino. Watkins Glen was right there with all those beautiful waterfalls, and I couldn’t walk to see them and photograph them. What kind of life is that? How was that fair to my husband, who wanted to do those things and couldn’t just because I couldn’t? I had just turned 29 years old, and I felt like I had absolutely ruined my body. That body used to be so strong, and I ruined it.
Inspired (and slightly obsessed with comparison photos), I put it beside a photo I had just taken that morning to show off my regular-sized (not plus!) sweater.
My eyes don’t look so sad anymore.
People say that the number on the scale doesn’t define who you are. I say that those people have never weighed 300+ pounds, or they are in denial about what they are doing to their bodies. At 350 pounds, my life was absolutely defined by how much I weighed. It dictated every decision I made. I can’t go to amusement parks because I can’t walk all day and I can’t fit in the rides. I can’t sit there because the chair arms are too close, and my hips don’t fit. I can’t fly to see my family because I’m too afraid I will have to buy two seats. I can’t cross my legs because.. I just can’t.
Honestly, at 260-odd pounds now, some of those things are still concerns. But I am not in that same sort of pain, and I do fit in close-armed chairs now! When I get up in the morning, I literally am able to leap out of bed instead of gingerly hobbling across the floor. I can walk over 2 miles without my back aching or my legs cramping. I am looking forward to vacation this summer because I am going to hike and maybe even kayak!
Oh, and I can SORT OF cross my legs now. Thunder thighs be damned!